Failing at Life Part II: This Time It's Personal

[ sycobuny on Wed Apr 30 at 01:18 PM // category: politics, relationships ]

So, I finally read an article today that jogged my memory of Friday night, and what I had gotten so up in arms about.

Now I’m less apologetic.

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-- sycobuny // 2008.04.30 @ 01:18 PM

The Fall

[ sycobuny on Tue Apr 29 at 09:42 PM // category: life ]

I wrote this last Autumn, and just came across it again the other day. Had it posted as a random filename on xzion.net, but decided I’d go ahead and post it here. It may really suck, but I think it’s kind of neat.

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-- sycobuny // 2008.04.29 @ 09:42 PM

Knee Pain

[ rakaur on Mon Apr 28 at 11:40 AM // category: health, life, pain ]

Had some bad knee pain this morning. Could barely put any weight on it in the shower. This is a first.

-- rakaur // 2008.04.28 @ 11:40 AM

Failing at Life

[ sycobuny on Mon Apr 28 at 12:00 AM // category: life // comments: 1 ]

There are some people who are shining examples of humanity, of what we can achieve and what we’re truly made of. They lift us up when we’re at our darkest hour, to bang on an old cliché, and they make the hopeless situation of our existence seem bearable.

And then there’s me.

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-- sycobuny // 2008.04.28 @ 12:00 AM

Lost

[ rakaur on Sun Apr 27 at 03:49 PM // category: health, life, pain ]

I don’t know what to do anymore. I’m out of medicine and I work in two hours. If I lose my job I lose what little is left of my life. I feel like there’s nothing left but to give up.

-- rakaur // 2008.04.27 @ 03:49 PM

Strange Dream

[ sycobuny on Fri Apr 25 at 10:54 AM // category: health ]

I had a dream last night that my heart was on the verge of failure. My mother and I were in a store and they had some new-fangled device that could supplant the heart’s function inside the body, and was powered by some micronuclear reactor. Well, being as how it was imminent that I was about to drop dead at any moment, we called up an old neighbor who happened to be a doctor, and she did the operation to put that thing in.

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-- sycobuny // 2008.04.25 @ 10:54 AM

Twitter

[ rakaur on Mon Apr 21 at 10:42 PM // category: software, technology // comments: 2 ]

I’m currently trying out this Twitter thing. I am unsure as to whether or not I like it yet.

-- rakaur // 2008.04.21 @ 10:42 PM

Test Results

[ rakaur on Mon Apr 21 at 11:46 AM // category: health, life, pain ]

Just got my results, c-reactive protein and sed rate were normal. This explains why NSAIDs aren’t really effective. Rheumatoid factor was normal, and I’m HLA-B27 negative. This is good news.

So why do I feel so crappy? I feel as if I’m just that much further from an answer. Without inflammation, what can it even be? Now my PCP doesn’t really believe me, and won’t give me any more medicine. What should I do? I can’t work without the medicine, and I can’t afford to lose my job. I don’t know what I can do.

I feel hopeless.

-- rakaur // 2008.04.21 @ 11:46 AM

Earthquakes May Cause Insomnia

[ rakaur on Fri Apr 18 at 07:17 AM // category: life ]

This was interesting. First earthquake I’ve ever really felt. I remember having earthquake drills in elementary school.

The quake measured 5.2 on the Richter scale and occurred at 4:37 a.m. CDT. It was centered in southeastern Illinois, five miles from the town of Bellmont, according to Timothy M. Kusky, director of the Center for Environmental Sciences at St. Louis University.

-- rakaur // 2008.04.18 @ 07:17 AM

Kind of Happy?

[ sycobuny on Fri Apr 18 at 06:14 AM // category: life ]

Lately I’ve been feeling pretty decent; obviously my Poison Ivy episode is over and done with. But I’m not really talking physically. I’ve just been in a decent mood this week, compared to last week which seemed to drag into eternity. I attribute this to a few factors:

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-- sycobuny // 2008.04.18 @ 06:14 AM